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2008-12-30T22:19:00.001+08:00

Heart pain!!!!

2008-01-21T22:19:00.000+08:00

Birthday coming!! i feel that there is still friend concern me... I am trying my best to take pasir ris chalet and really hope that my best brother (dasmond) will come!!! He that day promise to help me organise... Too bad there is fully book and he did not let me know immediately!!!

He also says he unable to go as too far!!! I feel disappoint and heart pain!!! I thought that he will understand me and could bring laughter to my life and cheered me up!!! Really wish that he will be there to brightened up my days!!! Why recently so rely on him??? Why??? I regarded him as my very good brother and wish that no matter what, he will treasure me too...

Dun care leh, this world is reality and really no sense of human warmity... I feel coldness and really look through everyone's real face!!! The world is fake!!! Haha!!! difficult to have the loved one!!!

Friends sometime also fake too, who is real and who is fake, i cannot differentiate...I am lost!!!

God, please enlightened me and send someone down to love me and take care of me~~~ Help me!!! Dun be sad!!! Dun let my heart broken and sob again!!! No more tears, no more mask!!!

going crazy

2007-12-04T12:21:00.000+08:00

I am becoming worst!!! What can i say??? I hate this world sometimes and i only can say that i had too many tasks to do!!! Being the only child, i need to be considerate for my parents...

There are many things i choose to let go and sacrifice. My life is so stress and i am too lazy to think more!!! Every day school, go work for opera!!! If not, straightaway go home accompany dad!!!

Dad is the only one i care most in this world!!! I need to take care of him and i promise auntie to do so.... Love him more!!

Recently, i feel that i am going to burst, lots of tears!!! My friends hardly show concern of me!!! I did not want to go out with them and talk to them.... As i feel that communication breakdown!!! I had changed!! My life starts to change!!! Actually, i feel painful when they keep on enjoying and is like ignoring me!!! Maybe i am sensitive and maybe i am selfish!!! I am no more the Bee Lay!!! I even hate my current life!!!!

When times passed by, i realised who is the one who shows real concern and the one i care more is Chloe and ting and siew!!! Thanks for consoling me while i am sad!!!

Chloe, i will never forget you in my life and i will be there if you need me!!!I am sorry that i keep on turn you down and did not attend activities you arranged!!! That is not i regard money more than you!!! Is just that i really need to earn the money and be responsible in the workplace. I know that i am not good in studies but i work hard in the working environment. I want to earn a living, if not, i will die!!!

For those friends who did not really talk to me, i only hope that you all can dun ignore people's feeling!!! i wish that you all will be there to help me and cure my worries!!! At least, consider my feelings and do say that give me some treats or sponsor!! I am not greedy or wanting you all to pity me. But do spare a thought for me!!! Laughter might be melting my heart and not colden my heart!!!

Please, god!!! Help me!!! Bless me and help me to earn more and hope that all the friends can do something for me!!! I really going to drown!!! I been forcing very hard!!! The one i used to trust, loves to crap with is now like giving me a cold shoulder!!!

Forgive me if i am very what, i cannot lose more!!!! If my parents not around, i will be the one who suffering in this world!!! NO siblings and is also like going to break ties with relatives!!! Everything is gone and lost!!! I want to get back!!!

Who can help me??? Is that option for me??

2007-08-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

I really no idea what to do? Who can help me? I am so lost.... I did not want to give up of studio production...

If i did not give up, there will be many of them not happy of me.... Have anyone spared a thought for me? I also did not want this to happen and i would like to make things easier. My heart is sour and bitter, no one really understand me and can help me... i did not purposely want to go perform opera too... I really need to earn money.. Not like others, can simply happy spend a lot of money. When i looked at they all spend money to go k box, i feel that they are so lucky and rich. I do not want to be leave out and would also wants to join in the funs.. Hence, i need to work very hard to go earn money...

Really wish that my friends can understand me. I cannot don't go opera. Beside earning money, i also offer helps to my god dad.. Now, he started to get stroke sometimes... I really feel that he is also pitiful..

I really wish that god can help me... Stop giving me pain and hardship... i am enough of it, i really wish that i can faster solve my problem...

They already back...

2007-08-09T17:14:00.001+08:00

Is a very happy thing to perform with yu zhong brother and ah xi sister!!! They all treat me very nice, lend me clothes and teaches me perform... Yu zhong brother helps me make up!!! Many of them saw it and feel that why they all treat me very nice!!! Haha!!! Envy ooo!!! First time feel very special and important to them!!!

I know some times i am not that intelligent and all my friends loves to tease me!!! I am dumb sometimes and will say wrong things!!! this is because i am absent minded and did not listen carefully!!! Everyday busy with many stuffs and not getting enough sleep!!! Brain blank and dun feel like talking too much too!!

I feel that my heart is somehow cold toward certain kind of people... I need someone to understand me!!! And is not just hold on to me and ignore me!!! No matter what i feel this world is very harsh sometime and that is life!!! I hate it!!! But since after yu zhong had come, my heart feel comfortable with the care he provided... He is a good brother and i feel that because of that, ming hao brother may not be very happy and is like seldom talk to me le!!! No choice, i cannot go perform with him and is more fated to perform with yu zhong!!!

He wants me to learn well and he sometimes give me encourages!!! I am very happy that day i look gorgeous than previous... He think i can make it and would want to invite me to perform with him next year with the whole taiwan troupe. Just only say dunno whether is true ma?? I wish that my dream can come true and become more well known of my specialties.

Hope that henry brother can faster come and teaches me as well!!! hahas!!! he is a good brother too!!!

Finally presentation is finish and hope will pass!!! wear so formal!!! After presentation, go home change clothes!!!
Yesterday the whole night no much sleep due to go out celebrate with mag they all. Although was happy and fun but i spend a lot!!! Need to earn back the money!!! And dun be too spendy next time!!! i want to go Taiwan again next next holiday! I eat a lot too and drink alcoholic drinks!!! Go Japanese restaurants (MaMasen, Bars and K box)!!!! wow!!! Have a long walk, i think walk around the whole Singapore raffles place areas!!!
Look at my formal wear!!!

so pain!!!

2007-07-23T23:33:00.000+08:00

The whole day really very stomach cramps!!! Cannot walk straight.. Anthony chew keep on asking me a lot of questions and i really could not speak up for myself!! I was struggling in pain, almost cried out!!!

Today is a bad day, whole day cramps!!! Luckily got Pat accompany me go take bus to bus interchange!!! If not, i really cannot make it.. Maybe because i too stressed over this few days and overload with many things.. Especially keep on going opera！！

God dad in hospital, i did not have time go visit him... Since promise to act for yi po( Ah har ah yi's auntie)... She is really very good to me, teaches me a lot... I even practices some marital skills... Whole body ache...

I quite miss agnes and Sok feng!!! So long no see them... I missed a lot of friends!!! Hope that one day, all my friends will be supporting me and come watch me... Hope that it will be surprised!!! been waiting but hard to open mouth asks them come since they dun feel like coming!!!! haiz...

today damm funny!!!

2007-07-13T15:34:00.001+08:00

It is a really fun day in marketing lesson!!! I never laugh so much before lo... Gillian Ong, a team mate of my, when she present, she keep on laughing.. Even the facilitator also cannot stop laughing.. Jean and me keep on laughing, cannot control lo!!!

I today no voice and cannot present well!!! Haiz... This few days is a very tiring job for me!!! So i a bit sick too!!! Haiz!!!

2007-07-03T18:04:00.000+08:00

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2007-06-20T12:12:00.001+08:00

Today is a Wednesday… I am now doing my FYP!!!!

Many things happen...

2007-06-04T19:17:00.000+08:00

Recently really many busy and there are many things happened!!! I dun feel like recording those sadness things!!! Therefore no updating!!! The only things i would wish to say is i cherish my dad a lot!!! I love him!!! As he dotes me!!! I wanted to be success and make him proud of me!!! I wanted to be the only rare and special in singapore!!! Very happy that shen wei jun keep on invited me to go perform with him!!! I also believed that by doing a lot of charity show would bring lots of laughters to those elderly!!! I was relieved that i am on newspaper. Steps by steps i learn and slowly get well known and admired by others!!! I wish that my dad will be happy that her daughter(me) can do it!!! Every one will praise my dad to have me as his daughter!!! Due to my mum, i only hope that she can be more understanding and be more general to others. Hope that she is not a hot temper person!!! I remember what auntie tells me, to be more independent and brave!!! Auntie, i love you too!!! Thanks for treating me and my dad so good!!! Never forget your kindness and bring honor to Ong family!!! Ah har auntie, i will also keep in mind that what you had said to me!!! I will learn to progress and be outstanding!!! I want to be success and be the extraordinary and earned lots of money in the future and when years come!!! I promised i will take care of my parents!!! Pursue my dreams!!! Thanks Dasmond, you are good to me too!!! And i am glad to know kelvin too!!! Siew, i know you will read my blog, you also a very character!!! Ping,Juan thanks for concerning me too!!! And lastly, my sis( mei lyn), hope that you can stop falling sick and recover to be better and better!!! For those who not mentioned, i also did not forget you all!!! Thanks for treating me so well!!!

going taiwan....

2007-04-29T21:15:00.000+08:00

I keep on thinking and finally wait till this day le.. looking forward... Yesterday rush on my FYP... Meet han and siew faster do at bugis star bucks.... abit not bear to left them... Haha... Anyway, after that meet dasmond at chinatown for performing with Shen wei jun.. This time is he invite us to perform and help up... i keep on nervous, luckily got shen wei jun cool me down... asks me not to worry so much... Even buy drinks for me and dasmond.. Shake hand with my parents and greet them... Feel relief after listen to shen wei jun's advices and encouragement ..Then i keep on practice on my songs with dasmond...

I act as xiao yin(who is perform by qing Rong) Many people see us... I forget some words when sing the san jin shi... I am not familiar about that songs, seldom listen... try to recall...

But there is applause of the audience.... So happy to see that...

yesterday meet XH and SY

2007-04-15T11:05:00.000+08:00

Went out to marina Square to buy present with han and yen... shop, then spend time chat a while... They hear my problems and i was there to share with them... I feel that sometimes i really very open... Loves to tell people my problems... I feel comfortable after spilling out my troubles...

After that went to hougang buy my facial musk... After using, my face is getting better... no time meet Cai ling... Haiz... I was just walking my way to take MRT, saw ah bee auntie and juile auntie... Juile auntie very wat lo... She really not friendly de.... look another way... (she... attitude problem).. Whereas ah bee auntie still got greet at me... of course i smile back and wave at her... Then walk away...
Later on go serangoon find dasmond to return him things... When i reach there, finding my way there... There were many people there lo... Some of them know me de.. I was so shy...

Kelvin brings me in to seat, then also went to back stage to return stuffs to dasmond... he introduce his god mum and yi ru auntie to me... Yi ru auntie so gd to me, chat with me a lot, she so friendly, praise me, then touch my hand... She comments that my singing good... I was so happy, but cannot be proud, so i courteous say no la.... Ah cai ah yi also very humorous de.. so cute.. she acts as a child... Got talk to her... then she busy with her stuffs.. Dasmond introduce wang lan hua (taiwanese) let me know... She also very nice, take photos with her... She praise me says that i look pretty... Haha... Shows going start le...
I watch till 9pm then go off... i know ah har ah yi got come, want go say bye to her when i want to walk out of the entrance.. She saw me and give me an expression, she did not want me call her... As behind got many people did not notice her... Some times i feel that why adults always being so weird... I dun quite understand old people... I feel some generation gap in between... feel more comfortable with youngster...
Although ah har ah yi sometimes very strict and fierce to me, she sometimes also really concern people de... She wants me to be good and required me to perform well.. She got very high expectation of me... Dun really encourage me to waste time on performing... She as strict as my mum lo... Same pattern lo.. I so scare of her and need to respect her... By the way, she is my beloved auntie... She teaches me alot...
Hope that she sometimes can dun be so strict... i will scare la... However, if is not her, i won't be so fast learning many things and being recognized by many people... I only knew how to sing, the rest not good... I dun have much time to learn too... My report need to retype since my laptop spoilt... I very upset... My poster not yet done... Still got FYP... This year is a very tight year to me... So upset... No laptop... How?????

Lappy problem...

2007-04-13T15:37:00.000+08:00

I feel so stressed!!! This few days been rushing to type my PP reports!!! I already worked very hard and tried to question Bao Xin. he is very busy and always not in singapore and neither i free too.
Suddenly, my laptop could not be switched on... I feel so sad... My data are all inside the lappy... I need to retype again using desktop... 2000 words.... Yesterday i rush and busy with it... So sad!!! Who will understand my feelings?????
This monday dunno how to survive... Without laptop in RP, it is totally without life in RP... How am i going to present? Why heaven treats me like this???? I did not do anything to my laptop... I treasure it with care... Why????

I feel like crying it out just now... Luckily, got ming hao online talk to me a while... I did not bother my stuffs and just carry on to talk about our interest!!!!
This few days also quite annoying about Kelvin's friend... He says what want woo me.. I know he is kind of teasing me... I just joke with him... Did not feel like talking much to him... I hate guys who come to hua yan qiao yu with me... In my heart, i am down with confusion... Why i become like this again??? Who i like in my heart??? Even if start to like, also no endings!!!! People who i like did not seems to have happy endings with me... ( seem like i really no fate with those i love)... Must wait for people to like me... This is what i dun like...

Now, i only wish that my laptop can be back to normal... Waiting to go to taiwan too... Date changed to 30 April due to some changes!!!!Today is only 13 april.. 17 days to go...

Loyang temple...

2007-03-25T22:35:00.000+08:00

Yesterday a lot of people queuing up for food at the Loyang temple, i wait for so long then manage to take three cups of ice cream... Yummy... I want to take more for them to eat... But unable, the people there disallow me and luckily got uncle come down help me take... They all then see that opera uncle busy performing and did not have time to queue up, so then give him more... Haha... I saw shen wei jun, He very friendly!!! He also interested in opera!!
I was really very surprised that he so engrossed in opera stuffs too. We exchanged phone number and then take a photo... I was happy that ah xin ah yi very nice and the da mei ah yi also talk to me... They all very friendly and we talk a lot.. ah xin ah yi wants me to come again so that i can teach her how to use hand phone..
Desmond also give me a very nice hairpin... He is a very good brother... Of course la. We are same Ong family, that why we very close... Like siblings..
Yesterday back home about 12 somethings... Too far away from my home...

ya... I surf net and happened to see mico's blog... Really very angry that how she says Ming Hao Brother.. Last time, i regards her as a very good friend but now very disappointed of her behavior... I knew that Ming Hao is a bit girlish during acting.. But this does not mean that he is very beng and totally girl... He is only trying his best and outshining his talents to put up a good show... This is why i so respect him and regards him as a very extraordinary person.. I admire him and respect him as my elder brother.. I show concern and care to him... As i knew that he is someone who really treasure friendship and relationship... I will miss him when he is back to Taiwan... I really wish that i can go Taiwan find him and he can bring me to tour around... Hope that other can really appreciate him and don't be so rude and mean to hurt other feelings... Think about other people.. Put yourself in other people's shoes... Don't you feel hurt when people use words to hurt you? This is what i want to tell mico... But i know she will angry so did not go comment on her blog... As i still consider her feelings too... i don't want to shoot her... Anyway not every one know my blog... i only give to those who are really good attitude and can click de...

so coincidence!!!!

2007-03-16T11:21:00.000+08:00

After watching ming hao show... tuesday did not go out.. stay at home do photoshop whole day!!! I feel bore.. So wednesday go out with dasmond to bugis to shop... We share our things and chat all the times... We went eat at bugis street( qiji)...Dasmond treat me eat since i got treat him before... We were talking about ming hao and wish that can go out with him too..

While praying at the guan yin temple which locate at bugis, got one auntie approach me to buy tissue from her.. I feel that she very poor thing so give her money.. She says lots of good words and good deeds and luck will fall on me... i dun wan the tissue but she push to me and then out of the sudden, a voice call me..

I turned to see who call me and shocked to see ming hao jump out in front of me to wave at me... he says y i am here, i follow him.. Is it?I feel so.. Coincidence... haha... See his mum and two friends... Immediately i shouted at dasmond... He stoned too.. I pass the cd which contain lots of photos... then like that talk a bit, then bye him..
After that i feel that want to ask him buy things from taiwan, i go find him again... Take photo with him... haha.. Then he want go vivo city with his mum le... I also say bye bye to him and that it... I go explore china town with dasmond the whole day..

Come to yesterday, the whole day i cannot sleep.. Waiting till 6 then fall asleep.. 8.30am wake up and drag my feet to faster go to meet dasmond at 11 plus at pasir ris.. take bus to changi Airport and see ming hao off... Terminal 1...
We bought some gifts for him too... Biscuits and kaya... very ex... many people there too to see him off.. got ah bee auntie(his god mum).. Some aunties.. They all take out the photos i develop for him to see.. His mum says her one very nice and ming hao de very nice too... Everyone praise me and say i am rare that why i love opera.. Same to dasmond too.. we take photos and hao keep on play with me.. Ah bee auntie want to invite me to go perform in her troupe.. I say i dunno how to act de but she praising me sing songs nice.. She tease me that whether ming hao's mum want me this daughter-in-law anot? -_-!!! haha... She says i very cute and dun mind too.. asks ming hao marry me and bring me go taiwan... So funny la...
Ah bee auntie also asks me whether got bf and like ming hao anot? i a bit shy then say that i already got admire le in my heart... Not ming hao la... he is only my brother to me... Then ppl tease ming hao say that he already being turned down.. no hope le... his mum says that i very honest, frankly speaking and straight forward.. This kind of girl she like.. is gd... I feel so shy.. Ming hao regards me as his sister... Ya... A bit not bear and dun wish he go off... he entered inside with his mum...

Then me and dasmond go off...i helped him carry things from his home to hongang... weather so hot and his place got komolo dragon... then i go off to buy things at china town... later meet parents eat dinner at jp... Go home keep thinking... He got call me but i accidentally pressed wrong button and i called back.. he just want to tell me that he reach taiwan le.. On bus to go home... Journey long and can hear that he very sleepy too... Keep in touch he says... hope so...

eat lunch with siew n shana..

2007-03-13T14:12:00.000+08:00

Yesterday is a very packed day.. My timimg is getting more and more rush.. I wake up late and only manage to go eat lunch with siew yen and shana... really very sorry that i am late and get them wait for me... Eat sushi and really very full..Sushi... too many sushi le... siew and shana loves to eat that raw.. so bloody.. make me feel... After that, take neo print... By that time, going 3 pm then left cine...

later on, i rush to hougang meet jean and go see ming hao and desmond.. Haha.. Cai ling also reach there le... i talk with Mh a while... At nite after watching the performance, my mum saw Mh and gives him hong bao... haha... enjoy his acting... Best and power.. Mh always beat my head and tease me too... ha.. Brother... Love u as my elder brother... Bye bye.. U going back le...

super super tired...

2007-03-08T03:15:00.000+08:00

this few days watch ming hao's performance.. Jean with me and are glad that we understand ming hao more... Huang xiang(king) also very nice to us and always tease us... I so pei seh to talk to ming hao and get blush to talk to him.. every time find him, there will be other people there looking at me and tease me.. So embarrass.. King always want to mock at me... says me jian se wang you( means forget him when got admire de).. No lo.. anyway i talk a lot with ming hao on Friday and Saturday... At first friday afternoon he is talking to one guy, so i go out eat.. King knows that i am disppointed go out sit, then he asked ming hao come outside find me.. feel god when he searching for me.. he invite me go in talk and push the door for me enter. While inside, people mocked at ming hao says got girls come find him.. my face turned more red when he get chair to sit and many ppl look at me and jean.. so he then asks me go inside his makeup place talk...i and jean being soaked because of the heavy rain.. ming hao being touch and asks me whether need to dry my clothes. hahah.. After that, he eat my apple strudel.. huang xiang makes me paiseh again... keep on saying why his apple strudel is different.. Say i bias.. Oh my god.. Got one auntie talk to me and she likes ming hao... she come talk to me too and praise me in front of ming hao... After that, that night, me, jean and king go eat at the tenth storey.. Chloe cannot make it to meet us.
I treat them eat kuay chait la.. As king treats me drinks. -_-.. ming hao cannot go with us as he already book.. Although That night very disappointed but we three having fun... Back at 2am like that.. take cab $25.80..

Then the next day, sat go church celebrate Carolyn's birthday.. I was so low spirit and sleepy.. But after that, me and jean go eat burger king during services, both of us also bad mood. Then we go back celebrate after the service end.

Straight after this, jean go off with me to the paya lebar to watch performance again.. The time we reach there, i saw ming hao being killed in that show.. Hiyo.. wasted.. he is so handsome in acting.. We wait and wait, finally can enter to find seats provided by jin mei auntie.. My mum come find me to sit with her.. Glad that my mum like jean and gives her red packets.. ming hao acts another guy.. Overall that show is modern de, abit weird. Finally show going end, chloe was here..

waited and waited, that auntie who praise me asks me that whether got go eat with ming hao.. i say yes and happened to know one young guy(yi chuan) from xin sai feng.. We talked and got know.. he loves opera too and now acting... then we waited ming hao to come out... He looks different without make up.. Surprised.. That night kelvin going with us too.. total 8 person ( chloe, jean, kelvin and king take one cab, me, auntie, ming hao and yi chuan take another cab)..

We reach there eat and drink and talk.. Is me treat la and kelvin.. king in charge eat the frog's porridge .. Got order satays too. Ming hao cannot eat as he eat vegetable at nite, (vegetarians) auntie order kaya toast for him... we talk a lot and i sit with ming hao.. haha.. so happy to understand him more and take alot of photos... Back at about 2 something by cab... That nite really dun feel like going back.. want to talk more with him..
yesterday(sunday) go acting in xin bao feng, so sad and angry about that ah yan auntie.. Started to annoyed by her,, cannot bear her and dun feel like talking to her.. she criticize ming hao and me.. says we are old to be able to match.. judged me here and there..

I make pins for them today(yesterday is monday) too and already pass to king at bugis le..
Then today acting, yi chuan also come helped me and support me.. also get jean to make up.. wow.. happy this week..

New year busy enjoying...

2007-02-24T10:08:00.001+08:00

New year have been passed 7 days le... I been busy go many places bai nian. Very pai seh that take hong baos from those that not very familiar aunties. Those granny and aunties knows me because they got watch me perform on stage.

These few night been at the paya lebra watching performance with my parents. Only first, second and fifth day of lunar new year did not go.

That day 22nd of feb, we helped mag to celebrate her birthday early before she go overseas. We eat hi- tea buffet at the GoodWoodPark. We are so full after 2nd round of eating. Ha ha, then we go walk walk at orchard and take neo prints too. Then at evening i take train back to boon lay with ting. I faster go find ah har ah yi as she is finding me to give me red packets. Haha, no oranges prepare and i asked my dad go buy. waiting and waiting, delay the time to go join mag watch movie with her and han. I even take wrong bus to reach JP. So clumsy.

For yesterday night, i was so blushing and excited to talk with ming hao. He acts so well and i am so shy to go back stage find him. Luckily got kelvin accompany me in and is huang xiang bring me go find ming hao. We talk quite a lot. Ming Hao tells me that performing needs techniques and skills, must be adaptable and changeable. The songs must be quick and accurate and must know how to sing with the nice vocal. He gives me lots of advices. Very friendly.

Wish that can go see him again, kelvin also hope that can learn with him.. keep on mocking at me that i can regard ming hao as my.. Hiyo, how could it? Impossible la,
i only wish that he is my brother and teach me. Further more, he tells me that our Singaporean make up is different from those taiwanese.

yesterday my birthday!!!

2007-02-03T12:27:00.000+08:00

So tiring... yesterday so crazy and happy.. The first morning i wake up receive a present from dad... A camera... wow... 7.1 pixels... So light.... I so excited to receive many ppl sms me wishing me birthday... especially bl.. a good friend of mine... then i go to school happily.. i dress up nicely and make up... haha... When i reach sch, chloe give me a big pink love... so sweet!!!! So happy, later on hui ting gives me a magazine of wu zun... later some of the classmates buys me mo chi, bubble tea and prawn crackers.. haha... i am surprised wang jing and sok feng buys me a cake.. So sweet... wonderful... also met hui juan and zhi yang... So nice.. take a photo with them... then after UT, mag, han, yen, ting and pat brings me to waraku which is at marnia bay... we spends about 100 plus there, they all treat me... after that eat ice cream... Woo... they all buys me a bag.. so shiny and ting gives me a necklace... So sweet... warming... haha

wow, busy from last week!!!

2007-01-30T21:23:00.000+08:00

yesterday and sunday, i went watch Fei lun hai with xin yun and mag at about morning 9am reach... wow, many pple lo... so crowded... so early got ppl le... Singaporean are kiashu... I tot that we cannot entered le... At first very disappointed that we might not be entered... We being chased down as the cineley k box too packed le... at first, we go eat at burger king before 1pm, later on ting's friend (kimmie) first time join us and i start drawing dong chen and ya lun's protrait... she impressed too of wu zun's protrait.. I already spend whole nite draw wu zun... really scare that not nice, but got praise by others that look quite alike like wu zun... wu zun's fans being impressed by my drawings and asked me to draw for them.... So while waiting and queuing, i hold the drawing block and draw all day... the dong chen still can, ya lun half way draw in the orchard k box.. i hope that wu zun can really get the darwings from me.. Luckily Thanks to dennis that he manage to let us get in to the k box... Manage to see them closely up performing at K box... ppl screaming and shouting, me, mag plus xin yun so thrilled... Even kimmie also very high... ha...

After tat, got two girls also shouted to wu zun that there is drawing of him... i was so shocked.. later on, mag, xin yun and kimmie share cab to IMM... alot of ppl, queue until outside the imm. so scary... i met lots of new friends... happy to know jia lin and her friend, and many other unknown friends... tot is ting's friends. haha... o funny...

We squeeze and squeeze, chloe also there a while... talk alot too and having funs... i scare that i draw three, did not draw yi ru feel bad.. So i last minutes draw, because of exhausted and no mood, i draw yi ru not very alike... ha... We spend hours waiting and only a few steps move once...

really tot that no chance le after hearing that time is closer tp 10.10pm, i being squeezed to roti prata, ppl pushing n step on my feets... haiz... I feel breathless... Feeling like crying as very uneasy, i called out for help and yelled at mag... Fortunately, she grabbed my hands and pull me up.. I managed to be the last one with her...

when up there, i realised that one protraits lost, i was anxious and worried.. I dunno which one give to wu zun, which one is for da dong... i dunno lost whose... only three left as it is rolled up. I feel confused and just hand either one to wu zun, he also blur... come to da dong, i give him two and says either one is to either of them.. he takes the two and says ok... he will sort it out... Feel depressed that wu zun did not shakehands with me. But da dong raised out his hands to shake with me, i feel wild in my heart... touch that he looks at me.. so blushed.. He so gd to me.. I very sorry that i at first no give ya lun signature then same to yi ru... After that, they all shouted to me that not sign yet... ha... i return to them let them sign.... I also got take the other two for them to sign as i wan to help the three girl i met for signuature. But being pushed off and being return the blank one from th supervisor. i was being rushed down the stairs. Before i left, i shouted to da dong that wo shi ni de tou hao fan since mag says to him that he is so handsome. Then i add on.. He looks happy and stoned... hahah.. after tat, i found back the lost protrait andis yi ru de...

the next day, i no mood to have lesson, feel lon but dun wan to left my teams.. so i faster hurry myteam do web then tell my facili tat i need to rush off... so i beg terry to drop us at tampines but he only manages to let us off at woodlands... After tat, take bus there. Again, this time tampine mall too crowded, mag, xin yun and me only there eat so as can look at ella and wu zun outside.. So poor things... Lucky got kimmie helps to pass the letters and my yi ru's protrait. She helps me explain to wu zun in her letter... so touch...

below is my protrait of wu zun, da dong, ya lun and yi ru...

now at stage..

2007-01-22T22:18:00.000+08:00

First time writing blog on stage... Tat day sat having fun all days with rong, juan, luo, ping, ying, ching and BL.... I am very happy that they help me celebrate birthday... Especially Bl and luo yi buy me a white shirt... I love it very much.. Now wearing...

I was now acting, just finish and wait for show to end... Really very busy tis few days... No time... Hope that i can have more time...

So happy yesterday

2007-01-16T13:10:00.000+08:00

I went K box with mag, xiao han and siew yen yesterday afternoon. We sing a lot of songs and i to be funny... I sing in a very crazy manner, try to create laughters. After knowing mag they all, i becoming more wild and cheerful. I feel that i just wan to be cheerful and escape from saddess. I know sometimes i am very wild, that is because i hope by doing so, i can avoid being emotional... I dun wan to be sad like past anymore. I just wan to get happy moments with my friends and cheers or shares with them.

Anyway, we had a very enjoyable afternoon... Later, i rush off about 5.20pm to go somerset take train to bukit gombak perform. I reach there about 6.30, then quickly make up. By 7.30pm, show start and surprise that darryl sis, chloe, caroline, benjamine and yi quan they all sit in front row to watch me perform. I was so happy to see them, i just wan to put up best show for them to enjoy.

Firstly, i act the maid who carry the king's baby away and hide him at one place in order to avoid bandits. unfortunately, i was being killed. After that, i act goddess mercy, it is a status and i need to be unmovable and continue in this posture for about 20 minutes. I continue to rush on changing into princess after that. It is very rush for me to act this show. Every time, i need to act three different characters. Ha... it is fun and challenging. The third character i like most, i remember that ah har ah yi ( Auntie) teach me the first time how to handle taking the stick ( actually is horse) to have beautiful motion when the princess bumped onto the cripple prince. That is the part when Youngest princess ( sister) found the evidence ( identity which is the belongings of her brother). I love to act this cute princess as she got a very adorable, innocent and cheerful characteristic.

I was so glad that all my friends enjoyed, even jing hui also enjoyed. Ha... is a very comedy show yesterday. I love ah yi for so good to me and act well in the prince role. Act so well in cripple, walk like that very toughing. I so touch that she made me very nice hairpin for me. SO GOOD, i love this auntie best. Also, so long no saw xiao bao sis le. She yesterday finally come out from malaysia to perform. She act as second sis of rich man's daughter. A very arrogrant and pampered girl who look down on the cripple. My friends praised her act so well. I was proud of xiao bao sis. So gd.... Tonite, many of them not coming as busy. Hope that next time they can come..

Great uncle.. BYe!!!!

2007-01-14T22:57:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, it is a sat and i attend my mum's second uncle's funeral... many of us cry and upset.
His body is being buried at the chua chu kang graveyard. I saw a lot of old tombs being left behind. Seems like no one visits for ages of years. I feel some kinds of saddess. But i still remain calm and did not express my saddess. I control my tears from flowing out.

Actually i dislikes attending funeral, i will feel sad and unhappy. I want to be happy and stay away from that. After the wake is finished, i go find chloe and the others. I feel glad to share with darryl sis and chloe. Many of them cheers and jokes with me. I feel great and released to enjoy with them. laughters and funs around.

Just now just msn with siew yen, so funny. She is becoming more funny and jokes with me. She jokes that i can post her "Damm Cute!!!"-__- Hope that she will be joining us tml for K box. Then tml nite, i will go opera. hope that all my friends will enjoy my performances and chloe will be there cheering.... Every thing will be the best...

starting fresh... 2007

2007-01-01T15:10:00.000+08:00

yes... a new year coming... is 2007... So happy.. over the holidays really enjoy alot...
Knows lots of friends, yesterday go countdown with ping and her sis, rong and her sis, juan and ying.. Zhi yang also got go... he is agnes's friend... a brother of me... get to know him from agnes and work together before with agnes's friends...

I was very happy to know chloe's friends... All are very nice person.. From last week 23 of dec, the first met and we become to know each other better during christmas... Nice to know Carolyn, darryl sis ,benjamin, yi quan, ming zhen and ming wei. There are many friends out there too... Many to listed down.

After that christmas party, we went shop and eat at marina bay... We play finger game.. So fun...
26 of dec, me, xiao han, siew yen, mag, pat and jia ming went chalet... Deng shan joins us till nite then back le... We spend our whole nite talking, playing and no sleep... then 5 something go park to wait for the sun rise up. But that day keep on raining, so we went back rest. About 11am thn wait for ting ting to come to join us to go escape. We have funs for that two days.

28 dec go back and at nite go opera... So tired and exhausted... very happy that ting come watch me first nite. 29 of dec, ping, ching, rong and luo yi also come... I act as a very ugly and crazy maid. so funny!!!! very sorry to make them walk through the muddy path... 30 dec, i was really very touched that chloe brings many friends come support me.. Benjamine and yi quan come up stage first find me... The rest sit down there to watch me perform... Later finish then come up find me.. I was moved that they all come from very far places to here... after tat, i treat chloe, carolyn and ben eat...

However, i really enjoyed my holidays... So happy..

Today a bad Day!!!!

2006-10-24T21:51:00.001+08:00

I today really bad luck!!! I tot i can enjoy holidays and meet Xue min again... She is like my godsis and my parents treat her good as well. Her grandma is my mum's good friend(sis) too.
Today everyone might be happy celebrating selamat hari raya and enjoying the holiday.. I was so happy too and spending time with my parents and one of my mum's friend and her grand daughter also join us... We take MRT to kallang to go praying in the temple... Without realisation of one more tep while i was playing with my phone, I fall down from kallang MRT 's stair and sprain my leg... that time, i feel pain and cannot rotate my ankle..Sob... I feel blackout and face turned pale as i stand up... left leg hurts and groaned aloud... My parents and my friend got shock.. My mum starts to scold me that i should not use phone when walking down the stairs... I quickly say that i am fine and continue my walking... I acts as i am really fine le.. Actually i bear with the pain and i dun wan everyone to stop the jorney because of me... Then like that, i go eat with them and take taxi with them to the temple to pray... I struggled to kneel down and seems alright to pray... After this, i dun wan xue min to feel bad that i am in pain and cannot go take neo print le.. I promise her that must go, so in the end, i persude my parents that i am fine. Therefore, we went to bugis while my parents and her grandma went home.... I take many neoprints with xue min and try to feel relax and keep on say cannot rotate only... actually i feel abit swollen le... I only can walk slowly and use my right leg to walk mostly.. Today, we went home at about 5 something... Is the most early time for me le.. I feel today is really a bad day for me... my mum fall sick after back from the temple... Sob... Unfortunate... I become more worry as leg started to swollen and now so late le... I dunno how... Hope that after i go sleep, i wake up in the next morning to find out that my leg had recovered le... Wish that my leg will recover!!!

2006-10-24T21:51:00.000+08:00

blog when i am free lo...

2006-10-17T22:27:00.000+08:00

Very very long no blog and update... I only blog when i feel like doing so... Recently, My new class not bad... E24D.. Some new classmates very nice... Especially Chloe, Petrina, Carmen, Angel, Janice and Melissa... Still got a few guys also loves to crap with me... Often tease me lo.. They are like brothers to me... Chloe and carmen they all very nice person, are friends of weiling.... We often laugh and joke around... Somemore having sweets and biscuits in class too... We ( Angel, Carmen, Chloe n me) went to watch movie( Rob-B-Hood) and have fun times... Hah... Then Petrina very cute person who loves to eat lollipoh.. Alvin will accompany her eat lo... (hmm... Haha)... Alvin is another who loves to tease pple, always tease me(call ppl's nickname)... especially my chinese name..-_-..
Alfred from hong kong , another one who loves to rumour with me and we both shoot Alvin back... Haha... I learning Cantonese from him.. Actually maybe is like that, then we become more engross in talking... I think is not another thinking... Must be clear and not misunderstanding... Friend only... I got one xiao di who call Byran... very very funny... like a small brother who loves to crap with me.... He loves moon cakes... The another ryan also very humorous.. He calls my name until like calling her maid.. Ha... Very hardworking de but playful too... Angel also playful and she acts as my matchmaker... But i just dunno why also will listen to what she suggest... Melissa is Ting Ting's friend, always system breakdown... Ha... We two really crazy when together... Ya these are the people who can click with... I also miss Sok feng and wang jing and my "venture". Never will forget... Is just that i want to balance my outings with many people and enjoy different moments with different friends... Sociable... ha...

Recently busy...

2006-09-17T17:57:00.000+08:00

Holidays going to end soon... I am looking forward to the new class but don't know whether new class mates good or bad... Worry...Tis few weeks, i had been busy for my own stuffs and keep on going out with friends... I been so lucky to know a bunch of taiwanese... N learn skills from them... Joining them to enjoy funs... Yesterday, i went for sweety's autography with luo yi in the morning... We get to know a lot of new friends while waiting to see qiao qiao... We talk and shares our discussion...I was so happy yesterday that i get to know one small brother who is so humorous and keep on making laugh... He is like a younger brother of me and can feel that we are like siblings.. But too bad that i forget to get his contact numbers... And we two had lost contacts since after the sweety's autography... Got one guy call dennis... Luo yi got mention to him that i am good, like some sort of wanting to promote me and wishing that i can be with him... I appreciate her for helping me but i did not have much interest of taling relationship since after alot of things happened... I have no courages and preparations to accept... I dunno why but i just feel my hurts not yet heals totally... When i was trying to forget of my pains, i always realised Luo yi tried to dig out my pains and mentions me about the unhappiness stuffs... I have been working very hard to let those pains recover... Trying to open my heart to accept someone who likes me and loves me... But now, still not the right time.... I dunno who is the one who can help me and stop my heart bleeding... For now, i just want to carry on having enjoyments and hope that my friends can bring laughters to me...

trying very best to forget...

2006-08-14T15:33:00.000+08:00

This semester going to end soon... I enjoy the day with my E36L class. Sometimes, when i am sad and did not talk, there will be whole banch of friends trying to joke. I am pleased that Mag and xiao han can hear me when i am not feeling good. They all support me when rina come disturb me and shoot me. I really wish that rina will not treat me like this and can behave herself. She is really too much. I know i am mean and harsh.

I become rude when i am frustrated and get irritated. Imagine being nagged at home and dunno y heart suddenly feel so miserable sometimes, there will be chance for me to release my angers when people irritated me.

I often feel sad when there is no one with me to keep me accompany. I will start to think wildly and further. For now, i still miss grandma and the bad days i experienced. The only things i worried is my cousin, wei wei. His family is really pitiful and i also know that he will cry often when he thinks of grandma. He has no one with him to hear his feelings and no one had give him encourages. I tried my best to teach him math when he encountered problems doing it. I talked to him and motivate him to be success one day.

Secondly, i am glad that Sok Feng help me design the beautiful blog template. She always give me inner support and i can feel it. haha.. Hope that wang jing and sok feng and many of my friends can remain contact with me forever. Sorry if i no times to accompany you all. I miss hui Juan and rong xuan too... I miss all my friends and hope that i can meet more truthful friends...

After all, i am trying very best not to be sad and forget the time i cried. Haha... Now, i no cry le and often jokes and teases my friends. They all say i am very cheerful but down in my heart who understand?

lost directions...

2006-07-31T22:54:00.000+08:00

Haiz.... I really dunno why i behave like that? I have no direction and feel lost... Can anyone understand? Who understand me? Even myself also cannot understand myself... I have no more sense..( think so)... I mean i have no more tears and continue to laugh all the way... I appear to be strong and can joke and laugh... But i really disappoint and feel life is just like that.... I already tolerate no more after being say by rina... I wish that she will not behave like that and could behave like normal. The more she scold me, the more i feel bad for her. It is not good to scold people and will have retribution one day. It is not a curse from me, it is the truth. I really wish to have peaceful and clear mind set. For this few days i have been thinking alot and experience alot. Sometimes, i feel helpless, upset for nothing, get irritated and frustrated over small things... I dunno why i behave like this, is just that i cannot control myself. Today, i am totally disppointed after i realised the display pic of ..... I feel moody when the display pic shown and pop up... My heart went down and totally cannot concentrate... Lots of thinking wandering in my mind... why? i really dunno and feel that i am totally lost... Luckily, Mag and xiao han with me go shopping at Jp... Sok feng also sms to console me and i met rong and end up go to her side to take back my Vcds. We talked a lots and really have a good laugh... feel relief after met rong... she is my best friend... hope that i no more things to think... feel that friendship is extremelt important... Sometimes, they are the truth real one who can share and listen to u... Miss my old friends who bring joys to me...

today bad day!!!!!

2006-07-03T12:40:00.002+08:00

Sian... Sok feng n wang jing today no come.. Many days no see them!!! I miss them... Early in the morning, i walk alone to school.... I feel so sick... My heart very sad and pain... No one to speak to n hear to me, dunno y i behave like tat... Yesterday i wait 4 his call n sms.... Tis few days no hear from him... Sms him, he also no reply... I call him the first time, no answering... Second time call him, he reject phone and disconnected the call. means that he hang up... Am i so disturbing and look so irritated to him? Or is he really work until very tired and rest whole day? Is he sick? y no hear from him? My heart is sour... I quite miss him... It have been a long time, i am trying not to have this kind of feeling and try to focus studying... I try to forget the one i admired for six years... I tried very hard and let time passed to wash away the pain... Yet, dun dare to accept or fall in love with others.... Y every time, the one i like will end up nothing? Am i really silly? I feel like crying sometimes... Being rejected for the first time, i feel that i am a fool and act as a crown... I really worried for that guy... Y tis few days no information from you? I think he will never know or pretend not to know? or try to avoid me.... Tonite, i wish he can come meet me... Or sms me.... Tell me how have you been? Fine ma? I miss u.. Bye!!!! Wish that there is someone console me!!!!

today bad day!!!!!

2006-07-03T12:40:00.001+08:00

when is the day coming????

2006-06-28T15:24:00.000+08:00

everyday busy studying and after school need to handle my own stuffs.... Is really very tired... Recently, i get to know a new friend... Is he come to make friend with me... Hahaha, i feel shy and funny... Dunno how to say words properly... I get to know him through my auntie's friends... Hear tat he is the godson of my auntie's friend.... Of course, need to the permission of my auntie... The first time saw him, i feel shy and walk away... Then after tat, they all ask me to be friend with him... Contact number exchanged and known him abit by smsing.... Then sunday, he bring me go eat near his market... We chit chat and understand him abit liao... I think he not bad, can be very good friend as we have things to say. Honestly, i have good impression of him when i saw him first time... Very friendly and cute guy!!!! Wish tat our friendship can improve.... I will start to miss him abit as he went to navy... He will be back soon ba... Dunno y suddenly will start to miss him!!! Is weird... Maybe i really cherish him as my friend... Hope that he will be safe and return soon... N contact me soon... Hahaha...

yesterday is mother's day!!!

2006-05-15T15:44:00.000+08:00

I went out with my family yesterday. At the morning, we went to Pioneer mall to eat lunch. I saw him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Such a coincident, but he did not see me.... I happened to sit just beside the next table to him. Haiz.... My heart sank, i wanted to call him... Dare not because my parents with me. Also, he also got family with him.... I just pretend not to see him and walk away after eating. Down in my heart, i treated him as my very important friend. I don't want to lose such a friend like him and i hope that he will always regard me as his friend too.... Dunno y feel so....
Hiya!!!!

Frustrated!!!!

2006-04-24T14:58:00.000+08:00

I cannot get why sometimes that person wants to give me a face!!! Hiyo, cannot stand her... I know that she is unhappy that her friend with me. But i could not understand that why she so jealous and gives me some kind of face. I not purposely wanted to ignore her at the first place. It is just that i did not realise that she says" hello" to me!!!! I was listening to songs and had my hearpiece in my ears.. I already apologrised, then what she expects? I felt that so weird!!!!
However, i feel that my heart keeps on cannot forget... My heart turns sour when mention Venture!!! I miss them!!!! They are like my family!!!
So i wish i can cherish them and meet them!!!! Sok Feng, u may know what is my feeling ba? I think only you can understand!!!!! Haiz... YU MEN!!!! DUNNO WHY LEH?

My heart very sour!!! I miss venture!!!!

2006-04-18T08:31:00.000+08:00

Long time no write blog liao! Today is the second day of school!!!! Quite lonely today as sok feng no come!!! Wang Jing being forced by Bao ge to go school early with him... So end up no wait for me.... I feel like crying when i walked along the long path to school... Down in my heart, i miss venture!!! I miss everyone.... Since after left the company that 13 april 2006( thursday), i began to think everyone's face... I miss lao ba( father)(Zhi yong).... Zhi yong become my dad liao.. I call him god dad.... Last time, i tease him as he makes fun of me... Then after that i also call xiao wen" sis"... Xiao zhuang is ah lan.... N xiu ying and fadilah and liang qiong i also miss... Jin mei i start to miss her scoldings... Haha... Zhi yong that day very nice and sweet... He did something very touching... He ran out the factory, leaving his works not done, he cycle to outside KFC, very far away... He rush up the stair and asks me and sok feng out for lunch.... Then we eat the chicken Meal... I that day almost cry, so touching... Xiu ying and fadilah also give us some souveniors... Sad that day, i spent my money to buy what i want.... So as to release stress...

Fun with everyone!!!!

2006-03-28T23:55:00.001+08:00

Today Sok Feng did not come again! Me take bus to jurong point, then take Mrt to lakeside to wait for the bus!!!! Haiz!!! Early in the morning, i scare that i will go other place work... I want to work under jin mei.... Luckil, i in the wax pelex.... Do the putting cartridge!!! Got Zhi Yong and Xiao zhuang(qian shi) (ah lan ge)... Hahah!!! They all two come help... Especially the ah lan, he see me so tired then insist me to do other stuffs.... I was so determined and refused to exchange with the xiang ying.... Therefore, continue to do my work and yong ge say i dun wan listen to him.... Haha, he mentioned that i yesterday not happy to do that work.... Then i rebarked at him that i not feeling well ( auntie visit) Hahaha... Then come to lunch, we all sit down together... The xiang ying at first wants me to stick to her but i dun like... She always hug me and hold my arms tight..... I feel so uncomfortable.... Anyway, i sit with lan ge, jinmei and Mao lin.. Then yong ge and the guo yan come join in... Haha... Finally xiao wen come sit beside me... Hahah.. Jin mei cannot stand me and i can sense her jealousy... Hahah... xaio wen use the old pattern to look at me again.. Wow lao!!! He acts more pervert than ah lan... Yong ge also say he transparent and i did not regard of his feelings.. Very funny.. We all play.... Suddenly, dunno how we say until yong ge become my dad... Then he says he dun wan.... N wan break relationship as i no eyes, dunno how to choose better son- in- law.... Hahahha... Everyone agrees that xiao wen not very good.. All The technicians purposely tease me that to choose them instead of xiao wen... Hahah.... Everyone play until like mad... Super funny... I today also realise wen bin very mischeivous... Like to play me but we all talk alot, i encourage him to study and he offers helps to me.. When he helps me arrange the boxes, everyone Wow... I feel very embarrass then do myself the next round... Hoya, everyone in the factory also my good work mates and brothers and sisters... The ji chu also quite funny liao, although he very weird and stubborn... Then the jin mei likes to come cut queue.... Haha... Today, really play alots and dicover lots of experiences!!!! Fun moment... Wish sok feng come back tml to have more fun... bye....

love there!!!!

2006-03-26T22:56:00.001+08:00

Although this week is tired and got OT for four days!!! The first few days work with xiu ying and annie... Is at the Orion... That sides very rush... We spends alots of hours there joking and chit- chatting... I thought that annie auntie very fierce but she really very nice... We can talk very well some times and shares lots of jokes when packaging.... I started to get well along with her... The lala also very nice... She loves to make fun of me and craps with xiu ying... Sometimes we makes fun of each another and says who likes who....Everything is fine la and i observe that the yong ge sometimes very emotional. He is very responsible in working and sometimes will joke with me. But sometimes, he remains very quiet and very mature. So i found that he is a very serious guy and loves to say romance to girls when he is in good mood. Haha, ya, that friday sok feng again takes off. Me again alone when she not around. I dunno how to have the long hours passed. Luckily i work with xiao wen, we spends hours talking when packing. Realised that he really loves to crap and plays with me. Cannot stand him too when he try to " use some kind of expressions to look at me". He says he is turning on some power and try to connect to my eyes... Haha, really bullshits and craps... He also my another brother, same with yong ge and wen bin.... Ya, the wen bin, looks like lee wei song( the singapore's songs composer). He very friendly and same like the name.... Very gentle and wen bing you li... His face very cute and round... Sometimes, will come and help me.... The ah wo also not bad, cannot tells that he already married... Ya, i call hi, ah gong usually and shuai ge when i need helps... Haha, really fun... Yesterday get to know the xiao zhuang ge well.. He treats me and sok feng best liao... Although he appears to be very filrt and se but he very nice... First time see him so frustrating over love... He very concern about and irritated of love... Haha, he sometimes loves to make fun of me and come here me.... That day, when sok feng no come, he purposely come find me and pretend to kiss me infront of wen bing and xiao wen... I accidently slapped him... I just want to play and never expect that my hands slapped him... Haha... Ya, the shao mei not bad,but very quiet and gentle... Hiya, everyone is very good, include the lee hoon( supervisor) and the jin mei( leader). They all very good and we can communicate well... Sometimes, jin mei looks funny and firece... But we all played.. Me and sok feng says want to fight over xiao wen... I also tell yong ge that i likes xiao wen.... Then he says that he is transparent.. Alots of fun when work there... The jackson also very siao and tian Ann will jokes sometimes.... Still got many have not mention.... So many people, dunno who to mention first... I know that wen bin maybe will come read my blog... So i mention him as well.... Haha....

HP!!!!!

2006-03-20T23:57:00.001+08:00

I love Venture!!! So fast a week liao, very long time no write blog liao... Haha... Tis one week got lots of interesting things happen!!! Thanks to agnes, She has introduce me to go in work under brian's agent... First day inside the warehouse really very blur... I was hand over to the leader who call jin mei at first... then sok feng was hand to her too... Both of them were very excited as well.... Then later on, i was bring to the other leader who call zhi yong!!!! Oh no, he was so handsome!!!! WOW!!!! i can feel hotness all over my body!!! Haha... Whenever i was call to do something, i cannot focus and keep on heart jump very high and blush!!!! Oh my god!!!! After a week, we can communicate well and talk a lot!!! He asked me lots of qusetions now and keep on teasing me!!!! Hi ya!!! I know alot of nice people!!! Me and sok feng know Xiu Ying, the lan xiao zhuang, ah pin ge, all others friends, like xia ying... all very nice!!! ya, the xiao wen is jin mei's favourite!! haha, i think so la, everyone also tease the leader la( jin mei) who is sok feng's godma!!! I also know the pan jie.. We talk alot that last friday!!! As sok feng also sick, no come, so i work alone.. Luckily got the pan jie!!! As i also not everyday work at the joey 2 line( the Zhi yong in charge de). Therefore, i being transfer all over to do the different stuffs... I dod not like to paste label.... I love to work under the joey2 line!!!! Got So handsome leadrere there to help me and teach me do work!!!! I so happy and enjoy the moments when we all jokes about.... He love to call me: " Meili!!!!!!!!!!" Haiz.. He says i am ming fu qi shi!!!!!!!!!!! Only my teeth not nice la, if i go put braces, i will look more pretty and wil be having lots of guys queuing up!!!!!!!! HeHe!!! While the ah lan ge also very nice but abit "se" means love to filrt!!! However, he very nice.... The lala(malay lady) also very cute and shao mei also very nice!!!! We can jokes and play... The xiu ying auntie very best laio!!! By the way, Zhi yong said that i should not call her auntie as she not yet marry... He tease me that no one wants her, then i says why leh? No one likes, he can loves her!!!! Or marry her!!! He says dun wan la, so old already, wants also wants me loR!!!! I shy liao!!!! Then he still aks me that whether he handsome anot, i says i prefers Takeshi kaneshiro!!!!!!!!! He so lovely and more charming!!!!!!!!! Zhi yong was so playful and keeps says that my idol is a gay la!!!!!! Hiaz.... Then i asked that why he dun wan go take part at the super star? He tells me that if he goes, there will be no singaporeans win and all will be left out!!!! He also mentioned that not famous will be better la>>> SO that he will not having lots of rumours reported or published irf he becomes a IDol!!!! I agree too!!! HAha!!! But he says i should goes as my name so .... Hahah!!!! Everytimes, tease me, so naughty!! But comes to work, he always very serious!!!! Ya... Ah pin ge wants to meet Wang Jing!!!! I think he interested in her liao>>> Anyway, i think yong ge will be better for Wang jing( Bai Zhan JI)!!!!!! Hahahahahhahahahahahhahahahaahah!!!! Bye,,,,,,,,, Next times then continue write blog!!!! Hope that will be smooth and happy continue having good times in HP!!!!!! Bye!!!!!

Out of time...

2006-03-11T17:55:00.000+08:00

I was busy recently... Busy over my cousin's wedding stuffs. She had just married. I was delighted to see her so blissfully and had found her happiness. Her husband really good and generous. That day, all my cousins who are siblings of her play trick on the groom. After teasing and lots of fun, the groom finally can enter the house to bring the bride out of the room. So dearing to see that they are perfect in match. Times files so fast, i can remember that since young kids, we used to play and craps together. Now, everyone seems to be all grown up anf marry off. They all asked me when is my term? I say not yet, maybe ten years or not going marry. I also dunno that who will like me? I now dun seems to be so trusted of guys... Every time loves to cheat.... Are there really real love in this world? Maybe yes, maybe no at all.... Who knows? I also dunno... Hope that will have lor... Anyway, friends are better... At least they might not hurt you... Love is painful and poisonous, something sweet that can turns to bitter or sour.... Is better to control feelings, so i want to have job and have busy life style and not to think of nonsense... HAHa... So sian... waiting for wang jing to come back too... Dunno y me and sok feng will think of her... I also got miss my seconday and primary friends.. Especially rong and Juan.... Alots i also miss, Rachel and Xiu and Xue min!!!!!!! Wait, still got someone.... Luo Yi!!! sometimes, really afraid of her and scare that she... Hope that she can change to be more sensible and dun be upset and angry of every things. Wish that she can be more independent and controls all her temper...

Jurong East..........

2006-03-01T12:27:00.000+08:00

A fun day and lots of eating... In the morning, we met at the clementi to buy chwee Kueh... Tou hua and cracker and soya bean. Afternoon, eat the chrispy noodles and drinks.
Yesterday after school wait for someone until very long... It's all sok feng lor, accompany her to wait for someone lo.... But is fun la, wang Jing and me keep disturbing ah feng... In the class, we watch sailormoon, dun understand a single thing as it is cantonese.... We wait until 6.30pm then leave the school... Haha, then we walk to redhill MRT station making lots of funny actions. Me and wang Jing began to make fun of her and him... Hugs and hold hands....to make them laugh...The CG very shy leh and keep saying in a very gentle and soft voice... HAHA!!!!! Like zai zai, but i dun think so la, is sok feng think so only...
Then reach the jurong east, we went to the masa malan to buy muach jee and have MacDonalds... So full and like want to vomit out.... Haha... the whole day laugh and eat so much... I very happy and glad to know Sok feng and Wang jing... Very sorry if i got any wrongs... I am a very key siao person, sometimes straightforward and speak without any thinkings... Hahaha.... Hope that my friends can tolerate me la..... Finally, i was happy that my cousin say that he want to change and stop being sad liao... Glad to hear him say that he wants to be study hard and dun wan disappoint Grandma.....

My memory...

2006-02-26T20:02:00.001+08:00

Busy over this few days, that why i could not update my blog. I was very happy to go out with wang jing and sok feng on that friday. We went to bugis to take neoprint again... Dunno why we three always love to pose and take photos. Haha, really cannot stand us. Again, we shopped again and chit chat at the MacDonald for about three hours. We pour out everythings to each other. Sitting down there at about 7 pm, we chat until 10pm! So late i back to my home. That day was really a fun day... Although unable to see wang jing wear skirt, me and sok feng almost blame her and tease her the whole day. Wang jing was sorry that she did not wear skirt and at the end sok feng and i wear. Hahahaha.... Hiya, we not angry with wang jing but only jokes with her.

Yesterday( Sat), i went to my auntie's house, then bring my cousin ( younger brother) to Orchard to find my other cousins to shop. Actually i feel sorry and pitiful for this cousin( the young brother). He was really a poor thing. He keeps thinking of my grandma, always crys. He had no mood to go shopping and always gloomy. Since after grandma passed away, he never smiled again. Although i seemed to be very happy and humorous, but deep in my heart, i was also very heart pain. I wanted to cheer my cousin up, therefore i keep joking all the times. I am not a brave person and usually broke into tears sometimes. Since after come to poly, i learnt alot of things and gained lots of experiences. I stand up and accept my friends' motivations and consolations. However, i was with my cousins to shop at orchard until nine something at nite.
Today, the whole family met up and travel by the book bus of my dad's friend. He drove the whole family, included my three of the aunties and many of my cousins to the incremation place to pray my grandmother. Everyone was sad and cried. Then after that, we burn all the josspapers and joss sticks. Later that, we went back to my auntie's house to eat lunch. We chat until evenings then went back. Haiz...
Hope that the coming days will be fine and will not be sad. I want to be happy and go on my life.

My memory...

2006-02-26T20:02:00.000+08:00

Busy over this few days, that why i could not update my blog. I was very happy to go out with wang jing and sok feng on that friday. We went to bugis to take neoprint again... Dunno why we three always love to pose and take photos. Haha, really cannot stand us. Again, we shopped again and chit chat at the MacDonald for about three hours. We pour out everythings to each other. Sitting down there at about 7 pm, we chat until 10pm! So late i back to my home. That day was really a fun day... Although unable to see wang jing wear skirt, me and sok feng almost blame her and tease her the whole day. Wang jing was sorry that she did not wear skirt and at the end sok feng and i wear. Hahahaha.... Hiya, we not angry with wang jing but only jokes with her.
Yesterday( Sat), i went to my auntie's house, then bring my cousin ( younger brother) to Orchard to find my other cousins to shop. Actually i feel sorry and pitiful for this cousin( the young brother). He was really a poor thing. He keeps thinking of my grandma, always crys. He had no mood to go shopping and always gloomy. Since after grandma passed away, he never smiled again. Although i seemed to be very happy and humorous, but deep in my heart, i was also very heart pain. I wanted to cheer my cousin up, therefore i keep joking all the times. I am not a brave person and usually broke into tears sometimes. Since after come to poly, i learnt alot of things and gained lots of experiences. I stand up and accept my friends' motivations and consolations. However, i was with my cousins to shop at orchard until nine something at nite.
Today, the whole family met up and travel by the book bus of my dad's friend. He drove the whole family, included my three of the aunties and many of my cousins to the incremation place to pray my grandmother. Everyone was sad and cried. Then after that, we burn all the josspapers and joss sticks. Later that, we went back to my auntie's house to eat lunch. We chat until evenings then went back. Haiz...
Hope that the coming days will be fine and will not be sad. I want to be happy and go on my life.

Bore...

2006-02-22T12:02:00.001+08:00

Really very sian... Feel like sleeping liao... Everyday like goes school do nothing. Actually got do works, is just that i very tired. Dunno why after school will be more energentic. Yesterday go with Wang jing and another friend of her... Terry a quite cute and funny guy. He says he not male... And he always give a very exhausted face. Made me feel sleepy too. It is damm funny when we went to the jurong East entertainment. I enjoy laughing and watching the show " RU HUA"... We watch the small TV at the saloon while waiting for terry to has his hair cut. The ru hua very funny... Cannot stop my laughter.... Haha.... Anyway, terry also treat us eat ice cream and sweets... Hahaha, he hong xiao hai.... Me and wang jing really behave like small kids... Hahahahahahaah.... To my surprise, terry is a previous classmate of Agnes... So qiao, this world...

I did it!!!!!!

2006-02-20T14:26:00.000+08:00

I really happy.. Today wake up nervous and come school in a very scare feelings. I must thanks my friends. They all really shout for me and support me. When i was having makeup, i am the last one done. Because the makeup lady was very young and this was the second time for helping people makeup. she is really conscious and concern. She put makeup in a very slow and caring way. Maybe her experience is not very strong, so she really have difficulties in helping me to cover up my pores and scars. I must also thanks the makeup ladies and the Adrian. Is they all help me to look good and boosts up my confident when on stage. I felt proud when i was on the stage. Of course i panic and fears. I shivered when it was my turn to come out. I heard that my video was over. Lots of voices around and callings of names. I start to walk out with all my confident. I posed to let them see and i smiled to the judges. But my legs was shivering and feel soft. I saw haliza and some of my classmates. Mei yun, sok feng and wang jing and alot of people. They all cheered and shouted at me. I very delighted and wanted to give them a wave. But unable to do so, i began to throw a look at them. Quickly, i walked away to change my second outfits. Later i come out to hear the results, i realised that i won. Denfintely, i was shocked and surprised to ask: " i win? Me? really agrh?" I walked infront to collect my prizes. That all.. My friends give me a look and showed theirs big thumb up. Lastly, i also want to thank salbiah and Mira... Really a big thanks. And Hui juan, I was relieved that you come congratulation to me. Thanks everyone... I make it and i success.... More confident in me... Thanks Adrian too... And Andrea too.... Bye bye!!! should go celebrate liao...

Try my heel....

2006-02-18T23:37:00.000+08:00

Wow...
My heels very high.. Dunno how to walk on Monday.. Quite excited liao. Today must really thanks Mei Yun!!! She accompany me the whole day from about 1pm to 7pm like that. We went shopping at Bishan Junction 8. Today was happy that we talked a lot and i bought a lot of stuff back. haha.... Wow!!! We also take neoprints.. Knowing Mei yun also not bad. She is really a good friend.. Always gives me encourages and support. Her words:" ai Zai"!!!! which means that must be confident and stand with support. haha... Ya, is true.. i must try my best on Monday... Jia you to me!!!! Gan Ba Tae!!! Never lose faith!!!! Hope that my friends will support me and dun mock at me!!!

Excited and tired..

2006-02-17T11:47:00.000+08:00

My project makeover is coming... Is on Monday... Actually i did not know why i want to join the makeover in the first place. I get to know Andrea. She is friendly and nice. Both of them shared ideas and got to the Far East Plaza with a whole branch of people. At first, we are at the heeren to choose the guy's outfits. But andrea and i went to the macha to eat. After that, we rush there by taxi and was alittle late. The organsier helps us to choose two outfits. I was delighted and feel that the skirts too short. Then after that, we went back very late. Is really very tired.

today then started...

2006-02-16T09:38:00.001+08:00

Sian,
i really dunno how to write blog... Last time only write one or two time.
Now then i started again.... yesterday is a busy day... I go to the plaza singapura with two crazy friends.. Then after that i rush to yishun to settle friend's stuff. Before that, i do lots of crazy stuff with the two crazy girls. We shop, eat and take neo prints... They all very funny and like to joke.... wang jing is very daring, shout at someone:" hello.... hello... hey... hey... your wallet drops!!!!" she every time likes to say hello... Then sok feng is the very " key siao".. every time crazy... very enoyable to be with them...

today then started...

2006-02-16T09:38:00.000+08:00