Birthday coming!! i feel that there is still friend concern me... I am trying my best to take pasir ris chalet and really hope that my best brother (dasmond) will come!!! He that day promise to help me organise... Too bad there is fully book and he did not let me know immediately!!!

He also says he unable to go as too far!!! I feel disappoint and heart pain!!! I thought that he will understand me and could bring laughter to my life and cheered me up!!! Really wish that he will be there to brightened up my days!!! Why recently so rely on him??? Why??? I regarded him as my very good brother and wish that no matter what, he will treasure me too...

Dun care leh, this world is reality and really no sense of human warmity... I feel coldness and really look through everyone's real face!!! The world is fake!!! Haha!!! difficult to have the loved one!!!

Friends sometime also fake too, who is real and who is fake, i cannot differentiate...I am lost!!!

God, please enlightened me and send someone down to love me and take care of me~~~ Help me!!! Dun be sad!!! Dun let my heart broken and sob again!!! No more tears, no more mask!!!