I am becoming worst!!! What can i say??? I hate this world sometimes and i only can say that i had too many tasks to do!!! Being the only child, i need to be considerate for my parents...

There are many things i choose to let go and sacrifice. My life is so stress and i am too lazy to think more!!! Every day school, go work for opera!!! If not, straightaway go home accompany dad!!!

Dad is the only one i care most in this world!!! I need to take care of him and i promise auntie to do so.... Love him more!!

Recently, i feel that i am going to burst, lots of tears!!! My friends hardly show concern of me!!! I did not want to go out with them and talk to them.... As i feel that communication breakdown!!! I had changed!! My life starts to change!!! Actually, i feel painful when they keep on enjoying and is like ignoring me!!! Maybe i am sensitive and maybe i am selfish!!! I am no more the Bee Lay!!! I even hate my current life!!!!

When times passed by, i realised who is the one who shows real concern and the one i care more is Chloe and ting and siew!!! Thanks for consoling me while i am sad!!!

Chloe, i will never forget you in my life and i will be there if you need me!!!I am sorry that i keep on turn you down and did not attend activities you arranged!!! That is not i regard money more than you!!! Is just that i really need to earn the money and be responsible in the workplace. I know that i am not good in studies but i work hard in the working environment. I want to earn a living, if not, i will die!!!

For those friends who did not really talk to me, i only hope that you all can dun ignore people's feeling!!! i wish that you all will be there to help me and cure my worries!!! At least, consider my feelings and do say that give me some treats or sponsor!! I am not greedy or wanting you all to pity me. But do spare a thought for me!!! Laughter might be melting my heart and not colden my heart!!!

Please, god!!! Help me!!! Bless me and help me to earn more and hope that all the friends can do something for me!!! I really going to drown!!! I been forcing very hard!!! The one i used to trust, loves to crap with is now like giving me a cold shoulder!!!

Forgive me if i am very what, i cannot lose more!!!! If my parents not around, i will be the one who suffering in this world!!! NO siblings and is also like going to break ties with relatives!!! Everything is gone and lost!!! I want to get back!!!