I really no idea what to do? Who can help me? I am so lost.... I did not want to give up of studio production...

If i did not give up, there will be many of them not happy of me.... Have anyone spared a thought for me? I also did not want this to happen and i would like to make things easier. My heart is sour and bitter, no one really understand me and can help me... i did not purposely want to go perform opera too... I really need to earn money.. Not like others, can simply happy spend a lot of money. When i looked at they all spend money to go k box, i feel that they are so lucky and rich. I do not want to be leave out and would also wants to join in the funs.. Hence, i need to work very hard to go earn money...

Really wish that my friends can understand me. I cannot don't go opera. Beside earning money, i also offer helps to my god dad.. Now, he started to get stroke sometimes... I really feel that he is also pitiful..

I really wish that god can help me... Stop giving me pain and hardship... i am enough of it, i really wish that i can faster solve my problem...