I really no idea what to do? Who can help me? I am so lost.... I did not want to give up of studio production...

If i did not give up, there will be many of them not happy of me.... Have anyone spared a thought for me? I also did not want this to happen and i would like to make things easier. My heart is sour and bitter, no one really understand me and can help me... i did not purposely want to go perform opera too... I really need to earn money.. Not like others, can simply happy spend a lot of money. When i looked at they all spend money to go k box, i feel that they are so lucky and rich. I do not want to be leave out and would also wants to join in the funs.. Hence, i need to work very hard to go earn money...

Really wish that my friends can understand me. I cannot don't go opera. Beside earning money, i also offer helps to my god dad.. Now, he started to get stroke sometimes... I really feel that he is also pitiful..

I really wish that god can help me... Stop giving me pain and hardship... i am enough of it, i really wish that i can faster solve my problem...

Is a very happy thing to perform with yu zhong brother and ah xi sister!!! They all treat me very nice, lend me clothes and teaches me perform... Yu zhong brother helps me make up!!! Many of them saw it and feel that why they all treat me very nice!!! Haha!!! Envy ooo!!! First time feel very special and important to them!!!

I know some times i am not that intelligent and all my friends loves to tease me!!! I am dumb sometimes and will say wrong things!!! this is because i am absent minded and did not listen carefully!!! Everyday busy with many stuffs and not getting enough sleep!!! Brain blank and dun feel like talking too much too!!

I feel that my heart is somehow cold toward certain kind of people... I need someone to understand me!!! And is not just hold on to me and ignore me!!! No matter what i feel this world is very harsh sometime and that is life!!! I hate it!!! But since after yu zhong had come, my heart feel comfortable with the care he provided... He is a good brother and i feel that because of that, ming hao brother may not be very happy and is like seldom talk to me le!!! No choice, i cannot go perform with him and is more fated to perform with yu zhong!!!

He wants me to learn well and he sometimes give me encourages!!! I am very happy that day i look gorgeous than previous... He think i can make it and would want to invite me to perform with him next year with the whole taiwan troupe. Just only say dunno whether is true ma?? I wish that my dream can come true and become more well known of my specialties.

Hope that henry brother can faster come and teaches me as well!!! hahas!!! he is a good brother too!!!

Finally presentation is finish and hope will pass!!! wear so formal!!! After presentation, go home change clothes!!!
Yesterday the whole night no much sleep due to go out celebrate with mag they all. Although was happy and fun but i spend a lot!!! Need to earn back the money!!! And dun be too spendy next time!!! i want to go Taiwan again next next holiday! I eat a lot too and drink alcoholic drinks!!! Go Japanese restaurants (MaMasen, Bars and K box)!!!! wow!!! Have a long walk, i think walk around the whole Singapore raffles place areas!!!
Look at my formal wear!!!