I keep on thinking and finally wait till this day le.. looking forward... Yesterday rush on my FYP... Meet han and siew faster do at bugis star bucks.... abit not bear to left them... Haha... Anyway, after that meet dasmond at chinatown for performing with Shen wei jun.. This time is he invite us to perform and help up... i keep on nervous, luckily got shen wei jun cool me down... asks me not to worry so much... Even buy drinks for me and dasmond.. Shake hand with my parents and greet them... Feel relief after listen to shen wei jun's advices and encouragement ..Then i keep on practice on my songs with dasmond...

I act as xiao yin(who is perform by qing Rong) Many people see us... I forget some words when sing the san jin shi... I am not familiar about that songs, seldom listen... try to recall...

But there is applause of the audience.... So happy to see that...

Went out to marina Square to buy present with han and yen... shop, then spend time chat a while... They hear my problems and i was there to share with them... I feel that sometimes i really very open... Loves to tell people my problems... I feel comfortable after spilling out my troubles...

After that went to hougang buy my facial musk... After using, my face is getting better... no time meet Cai ling... Haiz... I was just walking my way to take MRT, saw ah bee auntie and juile auntie... Juile auntie very wat lo... She really not friendly de.... look another way... (she... attitude problem).. Whereas ah bee auntie still got greet at me... of course i smile back and wave at her... Then walk away...
Later on go serangoon find dasmond to return him things... When i reach there, finding my way there... There were many people there lo... Some of them know me de.. I was so shy...

Kelvin brings me in to seat, then also went to back stage to return stuffs to dasmond... he introduce his god mum and yi ru auntie to me... Yi ru auntie so gd to me, chat with me a lot, she so friendly, praise me, then touch my hand... She comments that my singing good... I was so happy, but cannot be proud, so i courteous say no la.... Ah cai ah yi also very humorous de.. so cute.. she acts as a child... Got talk to her... then she busy with her stuffs.. Dasmond introduce wang lan hua (taiwanese) let me know... She also very nice, take photos with her... She praise me says that i look pretty... Haha... Shows going start le...
I watch till 9pm then go off... i know ah har ah yi got come, want go say bye to her when i want to walk out of the entrance.. She saw me and give me an expression, she did not want me call her... As behind got many people did not notice her... Some times i feel that why adults always being so weird... I dun quite understand old people... I feel some generation gap in between... feel more comfortable with youngster...
Although ah har ah yi sometimes very strict and fierce to me, she sometimes also really concern people de... She wants me to be good and required me to perform well.. She got very high expectation of me... Dun really encourage me to waste time on performing... She as strict as my mum lo... Same pattern lo.. I so scare of her and need to respect her... By the way, she is my beloved auntie... She teaches me alot...
Hope that she sometimes can dun be so strict... i will scare la... However, if is not her, i won't be so fast learning many things and being recognized by many people... I only knew how to sing, the rest not good... I dun have much time to learn too... My report need to retype since my laptop spoilt... I very upset... My poster not yet done... Still got FYP... This year is a very tight year to me... So upset... No laptop... How?????

I feel so stressed!!! This few days been rushing to type my PP reports!!! I already worked very hard and tried to question Bao Xin. he is very busy and always not in singapore and neither i free too.
Suddenly, my laptop could not be switched on... I feel so sad... My data are all inside the lappy... I need to retype again using desktop... 2000 words.... Yesterday i rush and busy with it... So sad!!! Who will understand my feelings?????
This monday dunno how to survive... Without laptop in RP, it is totally without life in RP... How am i going to present? Why heaven treats me like this???? I did not do anything to my laptop... I treasure it with care... Why????

I feel like crying it out just now... Luckily, got ming hao online talk to me a while... I did not bother my stuffs and just carry on to talk about our interest!!!!
This few days also quite annoying about Kelvin's friend... He says what want woo me.. I know he is kind of teasing me... I just joke with him... Did not feel like talking much to him... I hate guys who come to hua yan qiao yu with me... In my heart, i am down with confusion... Why i become like this again??? Who i like in my heart??? Even if start to like, also no endings!!!! People who i like did not seems to have happy endings with me... ( seem like i really no fate with those i love)... Must wait for people to like me... This is what i dun like...

Now, i only wish that my laptop can be back to normal... Waiting to go to taiwan too... Date changed to 30 April due to some changes!!!!Today is only 13 april.. 17 days to go...