Haiz.... I really dunno why i behave like that? I have no direction and feel lost... Can anyone understand? Who understand me? Even myself also cannot understand myself... I have no more sense..( think so)... I mean i have no more tears and continue to laugh all the way... I appear to be strong and can joke and laugh... But i really disappoint and feel life is just like that.... I already tolerate no more after being say by rina... I wish that she will not behave like that and could behave like normal. The more she scold me, the more i feel bad for her. It is not good to scold people and will have retribution one day. It is not a curse from me, it is the truth. I really wish to have peaceful and clear mind set. For this few days i have been thinking alot and experience alot. Sometimes, i feel helpless, upset for nothing, get irritated and frustrated over small things... I dunno why i behave like this, is just that i cannot control myself. Today, i am totally disppointed after i realised the display pic of ..... I feel moody when the display pic shown and pop up... My heart went down and totally cannot concentrate... Lots of thinking wandering in my mind... why? i really dunno and feel that i am totally lost... Luckily, Mag and xiao han with me go shopping at Jp... Sok feng also sms to console me and i met rong and end up go to her side to take back my Vcds. We talked a lots and really have a good laugh... feel relief after met rong... she is my best friend... hope that i no more things to think... feel that friendship is extremelt important... Sometimes, they are the truth real one who can share and listen to u... Miss my old friends who bring joys to me...