Haiz.... I really dunno why i behave like that? I have no direction and feel lost... Can anyone understand? Who understand me? Even myself also cannot understand myself... I have no more sense..( think so)... I mean i have no more tears and continue to laugh all the way... I appear to be strong and can joke and laugh... But i really disappoint and feel life is just like that.... I already tolerate no more after being say by rina... I wish that she will not behave like that and could behave like normal. The more she scold me, the more i feel bad for her. It is not good to scold people and will have retribution one day. It is not a curse from me, it is the truth. I really wish to have peaceful and clear mind set. For this few days i have been thinking alot and experience alot. Sometimes, i feel helpless, upset for nothing, get irritated and frustrated over small things... I dunno why i behave like this, is just that i cannot control myself. Today, i am totally disppointed after i realised the display pic of ..... I feel moody when the display pic shown and pop up... My heart went down and totally cannot concentrate... Lots of thinking wandering in my mind... why? i really dunno and feel that i am totally lost... Luckily, Mag and xiao han with me go shopping at Jp... Sok feng also sms to console me and i met rong and end up go to her side to take back my Vcds. We talked a lots and really have a good laugh... feel relief after met rong... she is my best friend... hope that i no more things to think... feel that friendship is extremelt important... Sometimes, they are the truth real one who can share and listen to u... Miss my old friends who bring joys to me...

Sian... Sok feng n wang jing today no come.. Many days no see them!!! I miss them... Early in the morning, i walk alone to school.... I feel so sick... My heart very sad and pain... No one to speak to n hear to me, dunno y i behave like tat... Yesterday i wait 4 his call n sms.... Tis few days no hear from him... Sms him, he also no reply... I call him the first time, no answering... Second time call him, he reject phone and disconnected the call. means that he hang up... Am i so disturbing and look so irritated to him? Or is he really work until very tired and rest whole day? Is he sick? y no hear from him? My heart is sour... I quite miss him... It have been a long time, i am trying not to have this kind of feeling and try to focus studying... I try to forget the one i admired for six years... I tried very hard and let time passed to wash away the pain... Yet, dun dare to accept or fall in love with others.... Y every time, the one i like will end up nothing? Am i really silly? I feel like crying sometimes... Being rejected for the first time, i feel that i am a fool and act as a crown... I really worried for that guy... Y tis few days no information from you? I think he will never know or pretend not to know? or try to avoid me.... Tonite, i wish he can come meet me... Or sms me.... Tell me how have you been? Fine ma? I miss u.. Bye!!!! Wish that there is someone console me!!!!

Sian... Sok feng n wang jing today no come.. Many days no see them!!! I miss them... Early in the morning, i walk alone to school.... I feel so sick... My heart very sad and pain... No one to speak to n hear to me, dunno y i behave like tat... Yesterday i wait 4 his call n sms.... Tis few days no hear from him... Sms him, he also no reply... I call him the first time, no answering... Second time call him, he reject phone and disconnected the call. means that he hang up... Am i so disturbing and look so irritated to him? Or is he really work until very tired and rest whole day? Is he sick? y no hear from him? My heart is sour... I quite miss him... It have been a long time, i am trying not to have this kind of feeling and try to focus studying... I try to forget the one i admired for six years... I tried very hard and let time passed to wash away the pain... Yet, dun dare to accept or fall in love with others.... Y every time, the one i like will end up nothing? Am i really silly? I feel like crying sometimes... Being rejected for the first time, i feel that i am a fool and act as a crown... I really worried for that guy... Y tis few days no information from you? I think he will never know or pretend not to know? or try to avoid me.... Tonite, i wish he can come meet me... Or sms me.... Tell me how have you been? Fine ma? I miss u.. Bye!!!! Wish that there is someone console me!!!!